Thursday, March 4, 2010

Crossover

After a quick trip to Chicago, the preliminary results are back.  The researcher, Dr. Burt, who is conducting the ASSIST trial has evaluated my pulmonary function testing and skin score testing and, under study protocol, I am moving into the crossover group.  

As I mentioned a few days back, the study protocol are clear for a member of the control Cytoxan group to move into the experimental stem cell transplant group.  Skin score must worsen by at least 25% or lung function must decline by an additional 10%.  Unfortunately, since my last visit in late August, my skin score has more than doubled--a worsening of 140%.  My lung function has declined about 20% since my initial Chicago evaluation.  Sadly, I more than meet criteria for the crossover to the stem cell transplant arm of the study.

So, what happens next?  I did have other testing done while I was in Chicago and I do not yet have these results.  If my cardiac function declines, I may not be able to receive the stem cell transplant.  The study is quite strict about cardiac function, and I have a heart defect (atrial septal defect) and some questionable heart thickening which could keep me from the transplant.  That will remain in question until just prior to transplant, as I will need to return to Chicago for another heart catheterization, a cardiac MRI, and additional heart stress testing before I could be cleared.  

My insurance will need to re-approve the procedure.  This takes time.  I was approved last year, but did not have the transplant, so we may have to start the process over.

I will see my local rheumatologist and my specialist at UCLA for additional opinions about my options.  The key, I think, is to make sure that reasonable options are exhausted but not wait too long.  Dr. Burt admonished me about my personal risk in waiting too long, as my heart is the big question to him.  The greater the damage to my lungs, the greater the strain on my heart, and the greater likelihood that I will not be able to receive the transplant.

He and his nurse also reviewed some of their latest transplant data, which were more mixed than the review of a year ago.  Some patients are having recurrent scleroderma problems about 2 years after transplant.  Some continue to do well.  Patients who are still "high functioning" like me are less likely to see dramatic improvement, while those who are, for example, already wheelchair bound might find themselves able to walk and drive again.  This certainly is a more dramatic response than what I can expect, which would be to hope for stabilization of lung and musculoskeletal function.

My greatest sadness at the visit was a discussion about my horseback riding.  I feel slighted still that nearly 3 years ago I was forbidden to play tennis.  Now, my doctor has said that for a period of 4-6 months at minimum after transplant I will not be able to visit a stable.  Apparently, there is a fair amount of fungus in hay, soil, and airborne at stables, which can be inhaled and create significant health problems for those with brand new immune systems.  Hence, I will be restricted from riding and visiting my horse.  I have thought a great deal about this issue today, and I think I will put Atlas up for sale.  I hate to think of him missing another year of the show circuit--he's not getting younger and he's an amazing athlete.

More than ever, I would love to hear back from you.  Let me know what you think about my options.  Let me know what you think I should do about my beautiful horse.  I'd love to hear from you.




6 comments:

  1. So sorry to hear of the progression. And then the double whammy of no riding! So much taken away by this awful disease! Hang in there... You are in many thoughts and prayers. Keep enjoying Atlas until you have all the approvals, etc for the stem cell transplant. Then decide. lisa

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  2. I was hoping for better results but think you have to rely on the doctor you trust most about what to do after weighing all their opinions and options. I hate to see you give up your horse - could anyone else ride him for a year so he could compete. When my father-in-law had a horse years ago, he let a young girl who could not afford a horse, ride and compete while he picked up all expenses. I remember getting rid of all my lovely handbags as I knew I'd never be able to use them again only to find out a couple years later that I was a bit hasty. Obviously not quite the same, but things could change far more than you think right now. I think I'd probably advise staying away from Atlas right now to avoid any further damage you might be able to avoid. Hugs and best wishes for the best possible outcome. You are very dear to all of us. Bonnie

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  3. Holly - thank you for sharing the recent news. Rich and I need you to know that we love you very much and pray for desired results as you step forward and "crossover". XO, Alicia

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  4. Dear Holly,
    I hope you will hear better news about your next results and I hope if you do the stem cell transplant that you'll be one of those who do well. Is it possible and would you consider subletting Atlas as an option until you know more? Maybe there's someone who can't buy a horse now themselves. We'll ask around.
    Love, Esther

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  5. Sorry to hear from your parents and then to read all these bad news.
    But I admire your courage and your optimism you are a great young woman.
    I keep you and your parents in my prayers.
    Keep the good spirit and the hope,
    Love

    Marie Claude Garin

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  6. Holly, you are so courageous in the face of repeated lashings. I like other people's ideas about Atlas. I hope something can work out for you. I also think you better temporarily stay out of the stables.. :( . As for the treatment, my heart tells me that no one on earth is better equipped to make the decision than you are. I hope your cardiac tests will allow the procedures to begin as soon as possible, but that is sure an uninformed opinion. We are, as always, cheering loudly for you and we send you all our love and all the good vibes we can muster. Mary

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